Holding back tears, I walked away from the courthouse with nothing. No guarantee that he would pay child support. My children and I were already down to our last few dollars and diapers. The last month’s rent was already due and we needed to find a new place to live at the end of the month. His lawyer had promised he would put a stop to my ex not giving any support, however that failed to come through.
Once home, I tried to apply for food stamps and public aid only to realize that my ex had taken all the necessary documents. And that’s when I realized that the level of control my soon to be ex-husband had over me and the children.
My ex is a police officer and he is using his good guy image to mentally abuse me and control every aspect of my life. He would always say that it was his money and that I don’t need to see the bills because he pays them. Well, it has come to light after he left that he has not been paying the bills and has ruined my credit. He borrowed money in my name but I have no idea what that money was used for. I had no access to his bank accounts and the tax returns.
I speak to my therapist weekly. I update her on all current and past drama. She classified my ex has a narcissist. Whenever I try to make excuses for him (and I still do), she would just yell, “When are you going to believe [he] is an asshole?!”
It is very hard to move on when you decide to get divorced. Rebuilding my life will be difficult. My ex has ruined me financially and emotionally and it feels like he is allowed to get away with it.